Getting Off

On Thursday night I prayed for strength and when I woke up Friday morning I did it. I deleted my Adam4Adam profile.

This mindless marathon sex is getting stupid. The endless parade of asses, chests, lips, thighs, and dicks. They are all beginning to blur into each other. Most of the guys I meet throw mediocre, desperate sex. Wham. Bam. Thank you ma’am.Or they seek instant intimacy as if busting a nutt together is all it takes to jumpstart a relationship.

Very few meet my physical, intellectual or emotional standards or match my intensity.

So why am I doing this? I am so much more. I will tell you why. I have hooked up because it can be fun and is something to do to pass the time, to beat back the loneliness that is always waiting like a tiger ready to pounce at the borders of my psyche.It’s an addiction and I need to go cold turkey.

Because there has got to be more to being a gay man than hooking up online. And it’s time I discover it.

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